Overflow from my heart...

Just to warn anybody who cares, this blog isn't really insightful or revealtion filled... my my heart is overflowing with pain... so I will let it out here....
Life is just really complicating right now, I feel so scared, even though I try hard to trust in God knowing that he has a plan for my life... However, I just am worried about the outcome of teh situations in my life will be.. from people who love me, who just don't understand what is going on in certain situations, to just having so much going on that makes the situation harder....
I just feel my life is in a whirl wind, everything I couldn't possibly imagine happening to me is happening, it just goes to show how messed up things can be...
I just want to be so close to God right now, except I just feel held back by something... but I just can determin what.... I just really want things to stop... I want things to be different... I wish I could be somewhere else...
I'm just sad and hurt and need God right now.... Help me LORD I pray.