Thursday, December 07, 2006

Desire for unity

My life right now, just seems like it's going in the wrong direction. I feel so broken and bitter, that I have no desire to let myself work on "unity" in some of the areas of my life. I feel like I should just give up. There seems like so many other better oppertunities, that I don't want to stay where I am. I just want to search for something better, something that will make me feel happiness. I'm really struggling with accepting that things can change, but I feel if I let them change that everything that happened in the past in okay, and continue in this cycle of hurt and distrust. Why I feel this way, I don't now or understand why. I seem to feel like I don't see anyting bright in m future. It just seems so unfair. I don't want to stay in this place of feeling this way.
LORD, give me a desire for unity, and give me understanding.

If anyone has any advice, just let me know. Thanks.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey there MJ
Well I am not too sure what your situation is.
But heres what I think. If things do change (hopefully for the better) that doesnt make things in the past ok, but that means that its in the past. Thats where they need to stay. I think that you might want to try to let it go, and move forward. God doesnt keep records of wrongs right? Change is good, we need to emrace it, allow God to change the things that need to be fix and look forward to the future
well I hope that all goes well with everything.. I will be praying

Anonymous said...

"I'm really struggling with accepting that things can change, but I feel if I let them change that everything that happened in the past is okay, and continue in this cycle of hurt and distrust."

My question to you, Mj, is...
If things change then the cycle of hurt wont be going still right?
It should be over, things will be better. Yes it wont make the things that happened in the past be "ok" that they happened it will just mean that its in the past, its over... Time to embrace the new things because you oviously dont like things the way that they are.
I hope that this can help you Mj.
Blessings!