RAWR!!!... hmmm...

When I was little, my mom told me that she had a dream that she had knit a scarf that went around the world. She had always said that she would.
Tonight when I had a conversation with my mom, she mentioned her scarf again, and she's like I'll knit a square a day untill I get my scarf around the world.
This satement can mean so may things.. Hope, perseverance... ect.
But anyway, I've been so blah lately, like I can't speak, or anything.
My mind is so set on getting out of the problem, wanting to be happy for once. I think and I think, about everything trying to seperate my thoughts, so I can deal with them but it's all fluttering around in my head.
I don't want to have the rest of my teenage years feeling like crap, like there is no way out, like I DON'T TO LIVE!!! (kelly, that's what I wanted to say to you.. but the words wouldn't come out.)
But in the midst of all of that, I want to be a wittness, of christ. I keep having dreams of the end coming and me wittnessing and also, there are so many thoughts about the end, and I KNOW FOR A FACT that the end is coming like really soon.
I just ask for all your prayers.
May God bless you and keep you, and make his face shine apon you.